Dealing with Grief

There are times in our lives where we are going to have to deal with the loss of someone. It is hard, and no one wants to deal with it, but one way  or another we have to. See, I have had many people in my life who passed away, but recently I had someone who passed away that was close to me. This hit differently, because of who she was to me. She was my mother. One of the most Godly women I knew, even at the end of her life.  I found myself with a mix of emotions that I did not know how to deal with. I completely shut down from family, friends, my kids and my husband. I even shut down from doing what God has told me to do.  I quit writing, and I even quit seeking God's face. I was barely reading my Bible, and praying, because I was that sad. I was in my feelings  and I did not know how to deal with them.  I still have my days where I do not know how to express how I am feeling, but God is showing me how to deal with grief. See, going through this process, and it has not even been a

A Test of Faith

You know, the past week has been one of the most trying times for me and my family. We had to go through the most emotional weeks that we have ever had. To be honest, I thought I was going to go insane for a while. I wanted to pray, but I found myself in a state of not knowing what to pray, or even how to pray for the situation.   It was hard. I called one of the leaders of the women Bible study group that I attend, and she prayed over me. That gave me peace, but I was still on edge about what I was going through. I had a very hard time expressing my feelings. I kept them inside because I honestly didn't know how to feel.  But then the Lord had to show me something. He had to show me who he was. I mean, sure I know who God is, and I know what he can do in certain situations.  I know what the bible says about having faith and I have done a lot of blogs and videos on having faith that I should not have a problem with anything.  But when God puts you in a position that tests your fait

Be Encouraged

Joshua 1:9 “Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.” As I sit to write this blog, I find it interesting how even while I am writing this blog to encourage someone else, I find myself being encouraged.  See, sometimes as a Christian, I find myself feeling down. I felt like I cannot go on. I would even say I felt depressed. I felt like what I am doing is going nowhere.  Sure, when people see me, I have a smile on my face. I go around happy and joking, but what you see on the outside, doesn't match what I was feeling on the inside.  I will even go as far as say that I feeling alone sometimes. I read my Bible and I pray, I even have people in my life that I can talk to. But I still felt that sense of loneliness.   It even seems like I am not worthy to do the things that God has placed in my hand to do. I feel like I am not qualified.  Isaiah 41:10 “ Fear thou not:

New Journey for Graduates

As the school year has come to an end, kids are getting out of school for the summer, and seniors are graduating high school, and college. They are starting their journey to adulthood. Some know exactly what they want to do with their lives, while others may have no clue what they want to do.  That is perfectly alright. It may take some time for them to figure it out.  My son is about to go to the eight grade, and he was concerned about his future, already. He told me he was scared that he would not live up to his potential. He was concerned that he would not be able to do the things that he wanted to do in future.  As his mother it is hard. I have never wanted to be that parent who lived through her children. There are a lot of things in my life that I wanted to achieve, but I was not able to.  I always want them to go after their own dreams, live their own lives. Not become who I want them to become.  I would love for them to go to college and become a doctor or a lawyer, but that mi

Standing up for Yourself

Standing Up for Yourself!  So in my last blog, I talked about having a boldness for God. That is so important when it comes to us being chirstians. We need to be able to stand boldly for God when things are not right.  But one thing that I realized, the hard way, was how hard it is to have boldness when it comes to oneself. Now I am not saying that this is every Christian man or woman, but I have noticed that sometimes it is hard for others to stand up for themselves. I have struggled with that for years. I know in the past when I stood up for myself,  I would get so mad and angry and I was not acting Godly at all. I would curse and just act like I was just  a crazy person.   This happened when I was pregnant with my oldest son Donovan. I had a boss who was very nasty and very ugly. One day I did not have a ride to work because my husband was stuck at work and could not get off, ( he sold cars at the time). Well I called up to my job to let them know what was going on and that I would

Stand for God with Boldness

One of the hardest things that I have had to face since I started this journey to have a better relationship with God, is my boldness when it comes to people.  Now you may be wondering, what does people have to do with your journey to have a better relationship with God? I am so glad you asked. See, I have always wanted the approval of people in my life to validate that I was doing something right. I wanted people to tell me how good of a job I was doing, but I realized I was going about it all the wrong way.  I coward down alot, because I wanted that approval from others. I would never stood up for what I knew God was telling me to do. I always just took what others said, and just shyness would always set in.  What I found out was that people were not the answer to what I was trying to do for God. I did not need their approval. I found out the hard way, that I was not going to get the approval of man, because they do not understand what God is doing in my life.  But I found myself mor

Sorry for the website interruption

Sorry for the interruption on my website. I was not aware that my website was not working and had not been working for almost a month.  Please forgive me for that. But the problem is fixed now, and I will be back posting blogs this week!    Thank you for understanding and for your patience.     God bless.