An Unwavering Faith
Back in May of this year, me and my husband took a trip for our 14-year wedding anniversary. We went to Virginia Beach like we do every year for our anniversary.
I remember this trip, because it was at a time in my life where I did not know how I was going to make it. It was hard for me because I felt lost.
This was a chapter in my life where my faith was not strong. I had so much going on and I did not know if I was coming or going. I was just getting over Covid 19 and my relationship with my husband was not the best.
But I knew I was beginning a journey that I have never been on with God, and it was scary. He was telling me what he wanted me to do, and I questioned him every step of the way.
Sure, I was telling everybody through my inspirational videos to have faith and let God show them what to do, but my life was a mess, and I could not give myself whole heartly to God.
One of the things I question the most was why me? Why would you place this assignment in my hands and my life was in turmoil and I did not know which way was which. I was not prepared.
But as me and my husband got to the beach and I still was feeling unsure about my life, I went to the balcony of our hotel room, and it was about 10:00pm and I just sat there watching the waves of the ocean and God reviled somethings to me. He showed me the true meaning of unwavering faith.
This next part is what I wrote on the balcony that night:
One of the hardest things for me to realize is how rocky my faith in God really is.
As I sit here watching the ocean and I think on things, God showed me something. Looking at the ocean, there are times that the storms and waves of our lives are calm and still.
Then there are times that the storms and waves are big and strong, and they come some large and some small. But the one thing that God showed me is this.
Often, our lives are calm and still. Everything is going right in our lives, and we are happy. That is when we find our faith the strongest.
But when the waves come in our lives and they are big and strong and too much to bear, that is when our faith is weak.
That is when we take our eyes off the Lord, and we see how WE ourselves can fix the problem in our lives. Not realizing when we take our eyes off God that is when we see our lives spiral out of control.
Just like Peter in Matthew 14:22-33. He saw Jesus’ walking on the water and wanted to walk out with him. He started walking on the water, but when the wind became too strong for him, he took his eyes off Jesus, and he began to sink. He asked Jesus to save him. His faith was gone. But then Jesus said to him in verse 31 “Oh thou of little faith wherefore didst thou doubt”?
When things come in our lives, we should never doubt God, our faith should be strong in him.
In Matthew 17:20 he says we should "have faith as a grain of mustard seed". Meaning that no matter what may come up in our lives, we should have faith in God to get us through it.
But don’t you know that when the storms and waves of our lives are big and strong and out of control that is when we need to look to God the most.
Our faith needs to always be strong in God. No matter what may be going on in our lives, whether it be calm and still or the storm is ragging, if we have an unwavering faith in God, we will be able to handle whatever comes our way.